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My Songs of September 2021

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September was a month that full of changes, work wise. I had to keep readapting to the endless new changes. Truthfully, I was mentally exhausted because I needed time to process all these changes. Sadly, I have yet to get enough time to process all things that were happening around me. My anxiety also grew over time because I was, and still am afraid with all these changes and uncharted waters. Please pray for me so that I am strong and resilient enough to navigate these uncharted waters? πŸ™ Johnny Stimson - Smile This song kept popping up in my Instagram and I had to give it a listen. And oh boy, did I love this song a little bit too much! πŸ’“ The timing could not be more apt as I was struggling with all the changes and started to lose my smile 😒 Jamie Miller - Here's Your Perfect This song was on my YouTube recommendation for few weeks before I started to giving it a listen. Surprisingly, I like this song too. Heard it was super famous in TikTok though. Maher Zain - Number One

A Wave of Dreams by Kamalia Hasni

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A Wave of Dreams by Kamalia Hasni Title: A Wave of Dreams Author: Kamalia Hasni Publisher: Meraki Press Number of Pages: 145 Unlike An Ocean of Grey where my heart bled with every word in the book, A Wave of Dreams gave me that happy tingly feeling which made me smile throughout the whole book. Love and hope can be so wonderful eh? πŸ˜ŠπŸ’“ "But we are beautiful, You and I And in the eyes of those Who truly see us, We will shine, And we will be loved." -from daisies - "I hope I will never forget that my world started from you and I hope you know that my life is a beautiful one  because of you." -from forgiveness - "And it is in the small things That I find the evidence of love - Felt through connection, Proven through action. -from evidence of love - "But perhaps that's when it's fair. Maybe that's how it'll work out. When we all need to relearn, when we all need to re-love." -from re-love - "Everybody searches for love. Yo

An Ocean of Grey by Kamalia Hasni

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An Ocean of Grey by Kamalia Hasni Title: An Ocean of Grey Author: Kamalia Hasni Publisher: Meraki Press Number of Pages: 159 I have yet to go through a heartbreak and I pray that I will never have to because I seriously don't think I can handle it. I am a fragile person and I have an extremely fragile heart. But oh boy, did my heart bleed reading this book 😭 "It was like being in a foreign country, And hearing someone converse in your mother tongue. They all finally made sense." -from breakup songs - And in the moment when your eyes meet mine, maybe we too will revisit our dreams, And wonder what our life, You and me together could have been." -from la la land -  "loving you is a habit that still needs conscious  effort to grow out of." -from habits - "To be haunted by the memories of loving and being loved, by the memories of a beautiful alternate future, following me like a lonely shadow every time I wake up alone, every time I see two peop

I Owe Myself Peace by Riha J

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I Owe Myself Peace by Riha J   Title: I Owe Myself Peace Author: Riha J Publisher: Riha J Number of Pages: 37 Just like Rhymes of Reason by Nirrosette , I won't be able to share 5 quotes from I Owe Myself Peace by Riha J without spoiling the book content πŸ’” Instead, I'll share the snippets of my favourite poem from the book - Butterflies πŸ’— "But he was everything I could never have. He was the story abandoned, the letter half written. He was as close to me as the seventh heaven to the lowest point of the sea." -from  Butterflies - "This is the realization that no matter how badly I want something, there are times when I couldn't have it. This is where I make peace with the fact that loving does not necessarily mean having." -from Butterflies -

My Songs of August 2021

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Hello everyone! August was pretty much okay, until few days ago. We were told that we're going to have some changes here and there starting this September 1. Just when I was about to get used to my current routine eh 😜 August was also the month that keeps reminding me that death is very near with us and the only syarat of mati is hidup. My family and I lost few of our extended family members and family friends due to COVID-19 and a traffic accident. As much as I try not to show my emotion and talk about their passing, I have to say that I was deeply affected by the situation especially when we lost my same-aged cousin due to a traffic accident. My cousin and I may not be close at all but the fact that my same-aged cousin left this world really made me ponder about life in general. It could be me, y'know? Mido and Falasol (미도와 νŒŒλΌμ†”) - Superstar (μŠˆνΌμŠ€νƒ€) Such a consoling song, especially in this trying times. Thank you Mido and Falasol, and Hospital Playlist for always making me f

My Songs of July 2021

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Hello everyone! July 2021 was crazy hectic for me. My company was busy preparing for the new EU rules and migrating to a new system. So, we had countless of meetings and trainings almost every day. We also had to do OT for few days.  Admittedly, I was traumatized a bit by the busyness. Post-migration, we had hiccups here and there with the new system. We also had new shifts in place which was not helping at all with my anxiety. Loosely speaking, my mind wasn't in a good place earlier this month due to the changes. I had to keep reminding myself that this job is one of my answered prayers whenever I struggle with it. Please pray for me 😒 On a happy note, alhamdulillah, I've completed my COVID-19 vaccination. In fact, almost everyone in my family have completed the vaccination process. Alhamdulillah. Paul Kim (폴킴) - New Day (Band Ver.) So, I have this song in my iPod for few years but only started listening to it after it appeared in one of the Instagram reels that I watched. C

Rhymes of Reason by Nirrosette

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Rhymes of Reason by Nirrosette Title: Rhymes of Reason Author: Nirrosette Publisher: Munirah Jaafar Number of Pages: 63 This post is supposed to fall under 5 Quotes A Book but since this ebook is a collection of short poems (or musings as Nirrosette called them), I won't be able to share the 5 quotes without spoiling the book content πŸ’” Instead, I'll share two poems that tug at my heartstrings πŸ’“ "What if I told you I loved you from the start? Would you take a step back turn around and change your heart?" - Hopes - "I hope when everything changes, you remain my constant" - Stay -

My Songs of June 2021

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June was pretty okay for me. I was and still am so sad to see the number of COVID-19 cases in Malaysia but there's nothing more that I could do as I have done my part by staying at home 😒 On a happy note, alhamdulillah, my parents have been vaccinated. My mum got her two doses while my dad just got his first dose recently. Mido & Falasol - With My Tears Hopsital Playlist released a special OST on the press conference day of its second season. I was overjoyed because I have been waiting for these songs for so long! Thank you so much πŸ’“ Mido & Falasol - Confession is not Flashy Mido & Falasol - Introduce Me A Good Person

Renewing My IC During the COVID-19 Pandemic

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Life is no longer the same ever since COVID-19. Everything has changed and that includes IC renewal process. On a side note, I honestly have lost track with all these PKP, PKPD, PKPB, PKPP and whatever PKP that our government have imposed that I vehemently called all these PKP as "PK PK la sendiri." Anyway, I went to renew my IC at the nearest JPN during this one PKP (not sure which one) but I remember it was Ramadan because I was about to start my new job and I needed a new IC. Truthfully, it was long time coming because I haven't changed my IC since I was 18 and the chip on my IC did not work so well. Like, I literally had to put my IC on the card reader few times every time I went to the bank or passed through the TnG toll booths. Not fun at all. I booked my appointment at the MyJanjiTemu website. Based on my experience, the website will only allow you to book a slot for that day itself and you have to book it before 9am. I book mine before sahur for an appointment

A Parcel of Happiness

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  Kapal Terakhir di Dunia by Teme Abdullah May 28, 2021 11:00 AM The only battle that I won on May 26, 2021. So thankful that I got the blue badge for blue is my favourite colour πŸ’™ On another note, how can securing these books is much easier than booking a slot for AstraZeneca vaccine? 😭

My Songs of May 2021

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Hello everyone! I'm back with my songs of the month post. It's been a while and I miss writing this kind of post. Would love to update more on what's been happening in my life but I'll save them for another post, insya Allah. This May, I didn't get to listen to many new songs as I was busy adjusting with my new life but I was pretty much okay with it (: John Park - I'm Always by Your Side I was watching Vincenzo (I was late to the party, I know) when I heard this song for the first time. I instantly knew that it's John Park's song. Love the song so much πŸ’— JFK, Omar K & Nabil - Selamat Hari Raya This is MY raya song since 10 years ago? I couldn't exactly remember when I first listened to this song but I have always listened to this song every raya. Especially when I was in Canada few years back. I even play this song when it's not even raya. I wish they released a high quality version on any streaming websites because I love this song so

View From My Temporary Office

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  View from my temporary office April 20, 2021 1:45 PM Alhamdulillah, I have just started a new job after almost a year of being unemployed. Admittedly, I was worried and anxious of starting over, especially at this age but alhamdulillah, it has been a great learning process. I am stoked to see what the future holds for me :)

My Songs of March 2021

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Hey everyone! This post is tad late than usual but it is what it is. As usual, it's been a while since I last updated my blog. Hope everyone is at a good place! :) March has always been a special month for me but too bad, I didn't set my intention right at the start of the month so the past March had been somewhat okay-okay je? Uu - ε€ε€©ηš„ι’¨ (Summer Wind) My sister stumbled upon this song (not this version) while browsing Instagram filters and shared it with me. I love the song so much that I currently have 3 different versions of this song in my iPod. BTS - Fix You Have always loved the original version of Fix You by Coldplay but it is nice to hear BTS singing this song :) BTS - Life Goes On I'm an occasional listener of BTS so it is granted that I don't really follow and know their releases. This particular song was released in November 2020 but I listened to it for the first time in March. Glad to say that I enjoy the song as much as I enjoy Dynamite πŸ’“

My Songs of February 2021

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February was a little bit better than previous months. I had my moments of positivity, something that I definitely appreciated so much. Other than that, my life had been pretty much the same somewhat. Definitely need your prayers so that I can turn my life around, insya Allah. Please, and thank you? :) Meer Nash - Sorry If I Hurt You I accidentally stumbled upon this Chinese version of Peluang Kedua when I searched for Peluang Kedua cover version. I have always thought Hanbyul's version is heart-wrenching enough, but Meer Nash's version is like on another level γ… γ…   Inteam & Khai Bahar - Setanggi Syurga 2020 Thanks to YouTube recommendation, I learned that Inteam released a new version of Setanggi Syurga in 2020, along with Khai Bahar. Very late, I know. This new version of Setanggi Syurga hit me different. I really feel like crying every time I listen to this song γ… γ…   On another note, I also learned that suara Khai Bahar ni sedap juga! πŸ˜„ Afgan - Ku Mohon I suddenly ha

That One Time I Was Reminded of My Neat Handwriting

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The accurate title for this post should be That Many Times I Was Reminded of My Neat Handwriting  but I want this post to belong to That One Time Series , hence the adjusted title. Gone are the days when I sheepishly smiled whenever people complimenting my handwriting. I used to have really neat handwriting but everything changed when I entered college. My handwriting got worse as I started to use computer more. You win some, your lose some, no? Anyway, as someone growing up with self-esteem issues, my handwriting was one of the very few things that I took pride in. I considered my handwriting as normal (I can't write in artsy and creative ways) but very neat. A f un fact; all my family members have neat handwriting! Pardon me if I may sound so full of myself but I would like to think that the people around me were thinking the same too! πŸ˜› Here are some anecdotes of my neat handwriting that still bring a smile to my face, for my keepsake. My handwriting in 2017.  I used to h

That One Time I Met a Korean Guy Who Can Speak Bahasa Melayu

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I wrote this post few months ago but just felt like posting it right now :)  I didn't usually make a lot of small talks with our guests during check in process because I had to complete the entire check in process in 7 minutes. However, I did make exceptions sometimes depending on the lines, the crowd and the guests themselves. Anyway, back in November 2019 I believe, I checked in this one Korean guy. He was so friendly and talkative during the entire check in process. I was busy keying in his details in our system when he suddenly and randomly started to talk in Malay. "Saya orang Korea. Saya suka dan cinta Malaysia." I replied, while chuckling, "Oh ya ke? Terima kasih." "Malaysia negara kedua saya. Saya rindu Malaysia. Saya datang ke sini selepas 6 tahun. Bahasa Melayu saya okay tak?" "Okay je. Bolehlah faham. Where did you learn Malay language?" "Saya kerja di sini dulu. Saya juga belajar melalui YouTube. Saya datang

My Songs of January 2021

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Hello everyone!  It has been a while since I last posted anything on this blog. I even missed posting my songs of the month for November and December 2020. Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well or at least better than me, insya Allah :)  As for me, my life has been pretty bleak. Same old. Same old. I am still unemployed but am still hopeful that I will find better opportunities during this trying times. Please pray for me? Thank you :) Aside of feeling that January 2021 was almost the same like previous months, January 2021 was the month that I seriously considered of installing a TikTok on my phone. It was all because I had been watching these TikTok video compilation after getting continuous suggestions from Facebook and YouTube :( PUBLIC - Make You Mine (Put Your Hand in Mine) Natalie Taylor - Surrender Powfu ft. beabadoobee - Death Bed (Coffee for Your Head) Simple Plan - I'm Just A Kid