Her Little Guilty Pleasures

September was a month that full of changes, work wise. I had to keep readapting to the endless new changes. Truthfully, I was mentally exhausted because I needed time to process all these changes. Sadly, I have yet to get enough time to process all things that were happening around me. My anxiety also grew over time because I was, and still am afraid with all these changes and uncharted waters. Please pray for me so that I am strong and resilient enough to navigate these uncharted waters? 🙏 Johnny Stimson - Smile This song kept popping up in my Instagram and I had to give it a listen. And oh boy, did I love this song a little bit too much! 💓 The timing could not be more apt as I was struggling with all the changes and started to lose my smile 😢 Jamie Miller - Here's Your Perfect This song was on my YouTube recommendation for few weeks before I started to giving it a listen. Surprisingly, I like this song too. Heard it was super famous in TikTok though. Maher Zain - Number One

A Wave of Dreams by Kamalia Hasni Title: A Wave of Dreams Author: Kamalia Hasni Publisher: Meraki Press Number of Pages: 145 Unlike An Ocean of Grey where my heart bled with every word in the book, A Wave of Dreams gave me that happy tingly feeling which made me smile throughout the whole book. Love and hope can be so wonderful eh? 😊💓 "But we are beautiful, You and I And in the eyes of those Who truly see us, We will shine, And we will be loved." -from daisies - "I hope I will never forget that my world started from you and I hope you know that my life is a beautiful one  because of you." -from forgiveness - "And it is in the small things That I find the evidence of love - Felt through connection, Proven through action. -from evidence of love - "But perhaps that's when it's fair. Maybe that's how it'll work out. When we all need to relearn, when we all need to re-love." -from re-love - "Everybody searches for love. Yo

An Ocean of Grey by Kamalia Hasni Title: An Ocean of Grey Author: Kamalia Hasni Publisher: Meraki Press Number of Pages: 159 I have yet to go through a heartbreak and I pray that I will never have to because I seriously don't think I can handle it. I am a fragile person and I have an extremely fragile heart. But oh boy, did my heart bleed reading this book 😭 "It was like being in a foreign country, And hearing someone converse in your mother tongue. They all finally made sense." -from breakup songs - And in the moment when your eyes meet mine, maybe we too will revisit our dreams, And wonder what our life, You and me together could have been." -from la la land -  "loving you is a habit that still needs conscious  effort to grow out of." -from habits - "To be haunted by the memories of loving and being loved, by the memories of a beautiful alternate future, following me like a lonely shadow every time I wake up alone, every time I see two peop

I Owe Myself Peace by Riha J   Title: I Owe Myself Peace Author: Riha J Publisher: Riha J Number of Pages: 37 Just like Rhymes of Reason by Nirrosette , I won't be able to share 5 quotes from I Owe Myself Peace by Riha J without spoiling the book content 💔 Instead, I'll share the snippets of my favourite poem from the book - Butterflies 💗 "But he was everything I could never have. He was the story abandoned, the letter half written. He was as close to me as the seventh heaven to the lowest point of the sea." -from  Butterflies - "This is the realization that no matter how badly I want something, there are times when I couldn't have it. This is where I make peace with the fact that loving does not necessarily mean having." -from Butterflies -

Hello everyone! August was pretty much okay, until few days ago. We were told that we're going to have some changes here and there starting this September 1. Just when I was about to get used to my current routine eh 😜 August was also the month that keeps reminding me that death is very near with us and the only syarat of mati is hidup. My family and I lost few of our extended family members and family friends due to COVID-19 and a traffic accident. As much as I try not to show my emotion and talk about their passing, I have to say that I was deeply affected by the situation especially when we lost my same-aged cousin due to a traffic accident. My cousin and I may not be close at all but the fact that my same-aged cousin left this world really made me ponder about life in general. It could be me, y'know? Mido and Falasol (미도와 파라솔) - Superstar (슈퍼스타) Such a consoling song, especially in this trying times. Thank you Mido and Falasol, and Hospital Playlist for always making me f

Hello everyone! July 2021 was crazy hectic for me. My company was busy preparing for the new EU rules and migrating to a new system. So, we had countless of meetings and trainings almost every day. We also had to do OT for few days.  Admittedly, I was traumatized a bit by the busyness. Post-migration, we had hiccups here and there with the new system. We also had new shifts in place which was not helping at all with my anxiety. Loosely speaking, my mind wasn't in a good place earlier this month due to the changes. I had to keep reminding myself that this job is one of my answered prayers whenever I struggle with it. Please pray for me 😢 On a happy note, alhamdulillah, I've completed my COVID-19 vaccination. In fact, almost everyone in my family have completed the vaccination process. Alhamdulillah. Paul Kim (폴킴) - New Day (Band Ver.) So, I have this song in my iPod for few years but only started listening to it after it appeared in one of the Instagram reels that I watched. C

Rhymes of Reason by Nirrosette Title: Rhymes of Reason Author: Nirrosette Publisher: Munirah Jaafar Number of Pages: 63 This post is supposed to fall under 5 Quotes A Book but since this ebook is a collection of short poems (or musings as Nirrosette called them), I won't be able to share the 5 quotes without spoiling the book content 💔 Instead, I'll share two poems that tug at my heartstrings 💓 "What if I told you I loved you from the start? Would you take a step back turn around and change your heart?" - Hopes - "I hope when everything changes, you remain my constant" - Stay -