It's Been A Year
I can't believe that it's been a year (and four days) ever since I left Canada for good. Time sure flies fast when it comes to anything Canada but not so much when living the reality eh? 😢
Alhamdulillah, I didn't have a hard time to readapt with Malaysia this time around, unlike the first time. I still struggle figuring out my life but it's manageable. However, I do wonder, sometimes, what would happen if I were to make a different decision. You know, those what if questions. I can't help to wonder about it especially after seeing updates from my friends in Canada.
Honestly, coming back to Malaysia for good last year was a tough decision for me to make. Ever since my second year in university, all I wanted was to work and live in Canada (and come home someday). I was so close to my dream but decided to make a U-turn because my parents (my mum especially) kept insisting me to come home.
Jasper was the place that ignited the Canadian dream in me.
So, home, I am.
People do not know how this decision of mine affected me. Loosely speaking, I was sad and it hurt me so bad as I had to see one of my dreams being crushed in front of my eyes. From where I stand, it was the biggest sacrifice that I have ever made in my life for my parents. I'm a selfish person so I'm not used to making sacrifice. Which is why, I earnestly hope that this decision of mine will be rewarded somehow, someday.
Having said that, I've made peace with my decision. Life still needs to go on so I'm gonna soldier on and enjoy what's left of my life by trying to be the best version of myself, every day.
Alas, so long, Canada! You're dearly missed 💓