Lately,

I have been thinking about a lot of random things lately. Things that I don't really have time or things that I don't allow myself to think about if I were 'busy' with my so-called regular life.

1. On loving my cats.

I think I love my cats as if they were my own kids. I love them so much that I start spending too much money on them. The amount that I have spent on them during this MCO made me want to cut my credit card. I don't have an income right now so it definitely took a toll on my savings. I also became too sensitive and too attentive on anything cats. My family rolled their eyes whenever I made cat-related requests. They also find it amusing when they saw me crying because of my cats.

Dusty, Haru, Joey & Michie
4/9 of my cats :)
Babies just turned 4 months the other day.

I can't help but to wonder, is this how my friends feel about their kids? You just want the best for them even at your own expense? You will keep loving them even though they might have love and hate relationship with you? I don't see myself getting married in this lifetime, let alone become a mum so I may never know how they actually feel but can I say that I kinda get a gist of it?

2. On pursuing a Master's degree 

I have put this idea of pursuing a Master's degree on back burner for quite some time. However, I have started thinking about it again recently. It was all thanks to my friend who posted her acceptance letter to a Master's program and to a YouTuber that I accidentally stumble upon when browsing through the videos on YouTube. 


I currently have few options in my mind that I need to do further research about but the thought of pursuing a Master's degree excites me. A feeling that have long lost since I was busy making ends meet. I don't think it's going to be in this year or two but I hope I will get to pursue a Master's degree eventually. The sooner the better but if the situations don't allow it, hopefully it will be before I turn 35, insya Allah.

3. On dreaming of having someone like Lee Ik Joon in my life

Have you read this post; Hospital Playlist (슬기로운 의사생활) (2020)? If you have, can you sense how much I love Lee Ik Joon? I have stopped thinking about what kind of guy that I want in my life years ago but wow, Lee Ik Joon just showed up like nobody's business and made me think about what kind of guy that I want in my life.

Hospital Playlist (슬기로운 의사생활) (2020)
As much as I love Lee Ik Joon, I believe the other 4 made him shine too :)

Seriously, someone needs to pull me back to the reality as I don't think I can keep dreaming of having someone Lee Ik Joon in my life. I know I said that I don't see myself getting married in this lifetime but I'm a hopeless romantic. I love the idea of love (or maybe the idea of being in love) though I'm scared of everything that comes with it. I can't help but to wonder what if someone like Lee Ik Joon shows up in my life? What if I have someone like Lee Ik Joon in my life? Yes, delusional much. I'm very much aware about it. Haha.


4. On realizing one of my dreams

This down time made me question on when will I realize this one dream of mine? A dream that I'm not comfortable of sharing it just yet. Is it going to happen anytime soon or never? Do I have enough courage and fund to make it a reality? Will I ever regret my decision if I decided to make it a reality? Too many questions left unanswered :(

So, these are some random things that have been popping my mind lately. They are just so random that I don't really understand myself. Like, do I *really* need to think about some of them? 

Comments

  1. I love cats, I can't wait to have one as a pet. I need to live alone for that and that's not gonna be in a year or two. Tsk.
    On thinking about a guy like Lee Ik Joon, I think is beyond random! Haha. But to have such dream is not a loss so let's just dream about it. I think I won't get married too. The married couple I've been dreaming for how my marriage life gonna be, turns out the husband cheated too. So I gave up on marriage already since I can never trust men anymore.
    I have an unspoken dream too and I could relate on all the questions you have. It's a dream I really really really wanna achieve but seems impossible :'(
    I love thinking on random things sometimes too and when I did, I made a post on it too.

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    1. Hopefully you'll get to have your own cat soon, insya Allah! :) On thinking about Lee Ik Joon, yes, it's so random that I laughed at myself almost everyday. As on not getting married in this lifetime, hopefully both of us will find happiness & love in some other places, insya Allah.

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      May we have a courage and things that we needed to pursue our dreams.

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  2. sometimes memang we have all these sort of things keep on popping in our head. kadang yang mengarut2 pun ada. i dont hev any pets tapi kat rumah nenek ada few cats. n akak faham the part where u spend a lot on cats - my cousin pun macam tu. tanpa sedar beli mcam2.. food vitamins la accessories la tapi untuk diri sendiri tak ada pun hehe.. if that makes u happy.. its okay just go on.

    heee.. a guy like IkJoon ada yang.. tapi dalam drama hehehe.. insyallah the correct guy will come at the right time.

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    1. Kan! I think I love to spend money on myself but rasa berat hati sikit untuk beli untuk diri sendiri. Tapi kalau untuk kucing ni, tiba tiba je, eh dah ter-spent beratus-ratus.

      As for the Lee Ik Joon, it was such a harmless fantasy je, kak Siti. I'm not really looking for a guy in my life :)

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  3. Hey I don't see myself getting married either, but I do fancy the idea of being in love. Let's just be delusional togeder-geder 😂

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  4. We all want our own Lee Ik Joon in our life hahaha
    Awww... Tak boleht tengok kucing sebab automatic rindu dekat semua my cats (all 25 of them) yang hilang entah kemana.

    I hope whatever you secret little dream is, it would come true and going well.

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    1. I don't think everyone want Lee Ik Joon in their lives. My sisters rolled my eyes whenever I said I want a Lee Ik Joon in my life. Hahahaha :D

      Hope your cats will be in better places, wherever they are, insya Allah :)

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      Thank you so much for the prayer. Hopefully it will come true! Insya Allah ^^

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