On Starting Anew & Challenging Myself
Am writing this post to remind myself that I actually started doing something for the betterment of my life after going through a long dark period.
Some of you might have been wondering where did I go for the past one year. I rarely appeared online. I stopped updating my previous blog (and eventually closed the blog down) and Instagram. Basically, I left my virtual life hanging. I received few comments and DMs from other bloggers asking about my whereabouts which I unintentionally ignored. Sorry for that and thank you so much for showing that you care :)
Honestly, I did not go anywhere. I was exactly in my place but at the dark corner of it. I was struggling emotionally and mentally due to the changes that happened in my life. I am not ready to go into the details yet but the essence of the dark feelings revolved mainly around my failure to get a decent job in Malaysia and the struggle to readapt myself with Malaysia.
I knew how dangerous those feeling were, so I decided to come back to Canada despite getting resistance from my family, initially. It might not be the best decision as I might experience those feelings again in the future but at least, this decision that I made provided me with some temporary comfort while I am looking for another permanent solution.
When I decided to come back to Canada, I told myself that I will not allow myself to feel that way again. As such, I have decided to take few new challenges in order to give my life a new life and to celebrate the new start. Some of the challenges that I decided to embrace are;
- to revisit my hafazan
- to lose weight
- to learn how to use chopsticks
- to do something that I am uncomfortable doing
- to learn how to read Hangul
- to gain new sets of skill and knowledge
- to read more English books
just to name a few. These challenges might seem small to other people but they are really big for me. These are things that I put a hold on from doing for years just because I'm afraid of the failure and to step out from my comfort zone or I don't feel like doing it or I'm just plain lazy.
The progress of embracing these challenges has been somewhat encouraging. I know I can do better but I like to remind myself that it is okay not to rush things and it is okay if I have hiccups along the way. Some of the progress that I have made;
- My hafazan are slowly coming back to me
- I have lost nearly 6 kg - I think altitude played a big role here. haha!
- I can somewhat use chopsticks now. I can even use Korean chopsticks to eat banchan.
- I am currently working in a position where I need to do all sort of stuff that I am not comfortable doing.
- I finally have memorized all the Hangul characters! :D
I guess, cheers to the new start and challenges? :)
p.s: Would appreciate a prayer from you. May Allah ease everything for us. Insya Allah :)