Funny Realization About How (My) Feelings Work

This is like an open secret to my close friends, but I had only one crush in my entire twenty-something existence. I always said it was a 7-year crush because I decided to stop having a crush on him after 7 years but truthfully, it wasn't a full 7-year crush. He didn't really cross my mind in that 7 years but I was usually reminded that I had a crush on him at least once a year. That's it.


I do, however remember that back then, I always get giddy whenever he liked my Instagram posts or whenever he sent DMs to me though he was asking boring and normal questions. What a smitten girl you are, Farah. Ha. Ha. Ha. I didn't like the way I behave, so I decided to delete all my Instagram pictures and stop liking his Instagram pictures at one point. Plus, I was struggling with my life so taking a break from social media was like the best decision that I have ever made at that moment.

Farah & Sung Jin Hwan
The only (celebrity) crush that matters 💖

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Few months ago, I received DMs from him after years, and oh boy, was it different this time around! Instead of feeling giddy, I felt nothing. Or to be exact, I felt quite annoyed with him because he can easily google the answers to his endless questions. It also didn't help when he kept questioning my responses.


From that moment, I had this funny realization about how my feelings work. Everything was like a rainbow, a sunshine, an unicorn when I was infatuated by his existence (or more like by his likes and messages). Now that I have reached this age and have neutral feeling about him, his likes and especially messages mean nothing to me. They were like other conversations that I usually have with my friends.

To the younger Farah,

Thank you for deciding to stop having a crush on him. That's like one of the best decisions that you have ever made at that age. I'm eternally grateful for your decision for I don't think I can do the same if I were in your shoes.

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  1. Farah! so sweet that guy! Hahaha.. Actually k.nina tak tau pun selama 8y bf suka diam2. nk tahu perkembangan tgk IG, likes, dm. Maybe pemalu kot nk ckp benda yg sebenarnya.

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    1. Tang mana this guy sweet? Confused kita. Hahaha. Woah, consistent boyfriend kak Nina ni. Bagus bagus. Moga Allah permudahkan untuk ke peringkat seterusnya :)

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    2. semua laki ada sweet dorang masing2.. semoga farah juga dpt jodoh yg baik2. aminn :) eh bila nk balik sini

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    3. Entahlah. Tak pernah jumpa lelaki sweet sweet ni. Hahaha. Insya Allah, lagi sebulan dua baliklah saya :)

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  2. this year is the 5th year i'm having a crush on this one guy. i remember i felt really happy when he first talked to me or like my IG posts but now i don't really have feelings anymore although we've became closer hahaha he's getting married soon. i guess love never works for me.

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    1. Wah, boleh tahan lama juga your crush. Maybe not for this guy but Insya Allah, there's a better guy, a perfect fit for you :)

      As for me, this crush of mine just got married on my birthday. If this were to happen few years ago, I might bawl my eyes out. Hahahaha. Alhamdulillah, nasib dah matang dan takde perasaan so I'm happy for him. Hopefully he'll be happy with his wife ^^

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    1. Tak rasa macam memendam rasa pun. Mungkin sebab the feeling that I had back then macam suka celebrity :D

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