Looking Back at All My Old Blog Posts

I took my time recently rereading my old blog posts, from this blog and the previous two, just to see what I had been thinking and posting for the past eight years. And boy, did I get a good laugh just from rereading all of them :)

For the most part, I can see how childish and simple-minded I was when writing and publishing all those hundred posts. Especially all the blog posts that were written when I was in high school and my first two years in university. How come no one ever told me about that? I am so sorry to all the previous and/or current readers for you to read all that childish stuff.

I also noticed a trend in my blog posts that still exists until now. I always write about my life. As if my life is so interesting to talk about, eh. But when I think about it, I started writing a blog because I wanted it to be a medium where I could express my feelings, my tangled thoughts and my homesickness. I also wanted it to be a medium where I could come back to reminisce my old memories and to look back at my past which I may have forgotten. So, I think all my blogs, including this one, have served or currently serve their ultimate purpose.

On a side note, I am very much aware that all my blogs did not and still do not give added benefits to most of the readers. For that, I am deeply sorry.

Additionally, what I love about rereading all those posts is that I can see how I actually valued and felt thankful for all the small things that happened in my life. And what made me extra happy was to see that this attribute of mine has not really changed after all these years. Indeed, I was and still am #easilypleased #easilytouched #mudahterhibur.

My current happy space :)

I also have noticed a few different things after rereading all my blog posts and honestly, I had mixed feelings upon discovering all these things. Firstly, I used to write a good number of blog posts in full Malay. While I like the fact that I can actually write in Malay, it made my head and heart hurt cause I sounded so childish, awkward and skema whenever I wrote blog posts in full Malay.

Secondly, I had a lot of blog posts written in bahasa rojak. I honestly love bahasa rojak so much that it hurts. In fact, I think I prefer bahasa rojak more than English. I realized that I actually sounded more happy and natural whenever I wrote blog posts in bahasa rojak. However, I sounded too childish too whenever I wrote in bahasa rojak and this really kills me.

I know I am very much childish at heart, but how come this little fact is so apparent and crystal clear whenever I am writing? For god sake, I'm nearing my mid 20s and I still sound like an excited little girl T___T

Nevertheless, I have enjoyed my time rereading all my old blog posts. It was a joyful ride filled with laughter mostly due to my embarrassment. Most probably will not do it again in the next few months as I have decided to enjoy my current life and live in the present! :)

That being said, I have decided to repost some blog posts that have never seen the light due to various reasons. I also will repost several travel-related and Canada-related blog posts so that it will be easier for me to take a trip down memory lane which probably will take place in the next few years? :)

For those who have been with me and my blogs since a few years ago, what did you like the most and the least about my blogs and my blog posts? What kind of content would like to see more on this humble blog of mine? Would appreciate any input so that I can improve in the future, insya Allah. Many thanks in advance! :)